Hi friends! Thanks for taking the time to read this. I've always had a passion for writing and feel it's time to reintroduce that practice into my life. I've had blogs as a teenager, so it should be interesting to do this as an adult.
I'm following my curiosities these days. Exploring whatever feels right... Dancing, speaking, writing, revisiting movies I enjoyed as a child-- reconnecting with myself. It's amazing how stillness allows one to do that. I was "too busy" to really focus on myself and the simple things that made me smile before this pandemic, but now I know it's an essential for growth. "You have to know where you came from to know where you're going..."
I'm absolutely on a spiritual journey. That may seem controversial to some, but I find it grounding and empowering. I want to be my happiest self at all times. I've been sober lately, and I don't feel I have an issue with substance control, but my spirit has been craving clarity for some time now. I find it interesting as I approach my 28th birthday. I'm not sure if this is a life choice, but it absolutely feels like a good choice for now.
I want to be authentic above all else. Accolades and fame are nice, but I want to genuinely impact people through my life's work. I want to show people that kindness is the way and priority, that there's room for all of us to win, that whatever is promised to you will always be yours to have, that the universe is all our friend. I want to always choose joy, and to always be honest with people (lovingly). Freedom is the greatest currency for me.
I pray that we all find healing. I pray that we all come through this second / moment / lifetime more whole, more honest with ourselves, more fun, more interested in the deeper world around us, more like children. You don't have to tell kids to be interested in life -- they naturally are. They gravitate to what they like and feel no qualms about it, and they ask the questions they want answered. We can learn so much from them.
I guess I want to let people in and show my scars. Look at my imperfections, at my rambling thoughts, at my worries, at my mistakes, at my dreams. I'm such a human, and I know you are one, too. I'm not interested in wearing a mask for the world to see, to pretend that I'm someone I'm not. I just want to be me and by doing so encourage everyone around me to be who they are.
I'm not saying not to ever change -- change is a natural, necessary part of life. But I am saying we need to be honest with ourselves. I've tried convincing myself to feel different feelings, or my thinking "must be wrong," or silly things like that in my past. This no longer suits me, because it's simply not real. We all know what we like, who we like, what we want to do, what excites us about life, deep down. Our guts are way more intelligent than our brains, believe me.
So thanks for joining me on this stream of consciousness, whoever you are. If you are wondering anything or feeling like there's more to this life than meets the eye, don't worry, I've always felt that, too. Dare to think, feel, and live deeply. None of us are in this alone.
-M
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